I kind of feel like God is laughing at me. Is that a horrible thing to say? Obviously, this year, albeit short has it has been thus far, has not gotten off to a good start. I had hoped to go back to work tomorrow feeling a little more calm and in control of my emotions, hoping that the break would provide a much needed mental and emotional rest....and that's where I hear the laughter come in. I read this tonight and I'm pondering on it:
"Sometimes God breaks us to make us better. He may break our hearts so we will make more room for him there. He may break our will so we can disover his will for us. He may break our physical strength so we can discover that God's strength is made perfect in our weakness."
But what about the collateral damage? Or are we all (in my situation) being broken because have done wrong? I have always gone back and forth between "things happen for a reason" and "we're being punished for X, Y or Z". What if some people who are being broken are not strong enough to recover and become better? The particular devotional I was reading was about being "bad sheep". Have I been perfect? No. But I don't think that I have been particularly terrible, either. Not to the point of needing this much of a break down. Or maybe I have and I just don't realize it. But what about everyone else involved? *Sigh* I am definitely beyond broken.